my heart

There are days when being a mother, a good mother, seems to require more than I have to offer. There are days when I feel overwhelmed with the responsibility of it all. There are days when I let "mommy guilt" consume me and almost pull me under. There are days when I cry more than once. There are days when I panic at what lies before us (the teenage years, driving, dating, the birds and the bees talks). There are days when I give myself more time outs than my children. There are days when I wonder if I have done anything right. There are days when I raise my voice and must ask for their forgiveness. There are days when I count the minutes until Grey's Anatomy.

BUT.....

There are many, many more days when I am overcome with gratitude for these two amazing little people. Not a day goes by that they don't make me laugh. Not a day goes by that I don't learn something from them. At some point throughout every single day, I close my eyes and simply say, "thank you." They are smart, they are funny, they are witty, they are sensitive, they are kind (most of the time), they are perceptive, they are inquisitive, they are full of life and full of energy. They are teaching me patience. They are teaching me gratitude. They are teaching me to be ever-mindful of what I say, and how I say it. They are teaching me to be in the moment, to look at the world through child-colored glasses, to soak up every minute of every day. They are my heart.