Friday, August 21, 2009

perfectly imperfect

I have been thinking lately about a comment someone made to me recently......I know the person who made the comment had no ill-will in their heart when they said what they said, but all the same, I have not been able to get it out of my mind. Basically, this person implied that I am uptight, that I might have a problem relaxing, that maybe I am a little obsessive.......and maybe, given the fact that I have been obsessing just a tad over this comment, they might be on to something :)

So after a little soul-searching, here's what I have come up with: I am a little up tight, I do sometimes have trouble relaxing, and I am a little bit obsessive.....BUT, I am a work in progress, and every day I get a little bit closer to my goal of being present, of being in the moment, of being ever-grateful, of truly enjoying the many blessings in my life, of finding joy.

I think most of us struggle with this in some form or another. It's hard to be a parent and at the same time be care-free and light hearted. Yet I know that it's important to stop and smell the roses (in fact, just yesterday I did just that), to create a home that is peaceful and calming, to nurture relationships by truly listening to the other person, to carve out time to be quiet, to create, to dream, to teach our children the art of doing nothing.

So this is who I am.....a woman, daughter, sister, mother, friend who is perfectly imperfect. I read a lot, I pray a lot, I like taking pictures and documenting this crazy ride we are on. I enjoy singing in church, going to the movies, playing outside with my kids. I am inspired by creative women, I like politics and art and scrapbooking and traveling. I love getting together with friends and I constantly long for deeper more meaningful friendships. I am an open book....for good or bad. I have a quick temper, but I forgive readily. I worry a lot. I love my husband and my kids, and I am always striving to be a better wife and better mother.

So yes, maybe I am a little uptight, but it is only because I care about the people in my life and because I want to be the very best me I can possibly be......


Stacy said...

What a great post!! I'm very OCD so it's something I struggle with everyday and being a mom only makes it worse. Parenting is the toughest, most demanding, yet rewarding job in the world so I don't know how you could possibly do it w/out being uptight at times. I think the important thing is to make sure we aren't spending all of our time obsessing and worrying. In reading your blog, it's very obvious that is not the case w/you and that the majority of your time is spent doing things to make your life and those lives around you joyful and fulfilling. You are an amazing mom; don't lose sight of that! On another note, it was good to see you Wednesday...wish we could've chatted a little bit longer. I thought about you tonight when I was trying {obsessing} to get that perfect picture of Kase going to meet his teacher. As you'll soon see on our blog, my experience turned out much like yours did on Sienna's 1st day of school! I should've just left the camera in the car but then I would've obsessed about not having a picture. never ends for me!

The Frisco Russells said...

I agree ~ good stuff!! I agree it's hard to be light hearted and a parent I struggle with that alot :) I hope with my new schedule we can find the time to get together! HUGS

Erin Digital Photography For Moms said...

First off, I LOVE this post's photo. Also, there's nothing wrong with being a bit uptight - I think it would be good for me to be more uptight from time to time! Thanks for the inspiration.

therockwallhurtados said...

Reading your post makes me feel that I am not out of the norm. Being a wife and parent of 2 kids is a very hard but rewarding job. You do it very well!! So please take that and run with it. :)
Your post are always so inspirational and I love it. Take care!


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