Friday, June 15, 2007

My goal

So we are already halfway through the year and I need to take a look at my YTR goal of becoming a "photographer" by the end of the year.....OK, so I admit this was a lofty goal! I have basically NO knowledge of photography and I didn't even own an SLR until about 2 months ago and I wouldn't even say I have much of a natural talent.....BUT........ I LOVE IT!! I love taking pictures and I love looking at other people's work and I love having pictures developed and seeing what comes back and I love being out in nature and capturing images that I am drawn to and I love that photography makes me look at things in a new way..... Yet there is that voice in my head that says this is not a very realistic goal----that negative self-talk that gives me all the reasons why I should just move on to something more "doable" (I don't know anything about Photoshop and I have no clue about the settings on my camera, etc.....) So I know I have a choice. I can just go for it or I can allow the fear and negativity to keep me from doing something that I have always wanted to do????
I know the "right" answer, but I won't pretend that it's going to be easy. I just have to dive in there....start taking pictures everyday, read my manual, schedule my lessons with Susan, play around in Photoshop and just let go of the need to be a "professional" right away :)
So.....for now, I am just going to enjoy the process and try to learn and grow and get better as I go...arm myself with as much knowledge as I can, but also just PLAY!!
Eventually, I would love to do some photo shoots for friends and family and then branch out to actually doing this as a second job/hobby (in addition to being a SAHM). When I read Tara Whitney's blog and look at the photos on her website, my heart beats faster and I know that I have a passion for this. I know this is something that I am being called to do and I just need to pray about it and listen for answers on how to proceed. I need to do the work and also just enjoy the beauty that surrounds us everyday....that in itself is already a gift....that I am paying more attention to my surroundings, to nature, to beauty, to the people that I love....


chanel said...

hi kristy,
i got my happy mail today ... you totally made my day, i am just about to blog and pop a photo on ... thank you so much i totally love them!
I didn't realise your goal was photography ... i am trying to improve mine too, i did a class earlier in the year which was great, now i have to practise too. Tomorrow i am photographing a friends newborn baby ... wish me luck!
luv chanel
p.s. i'm not sure if i missed the happy mail list for this month? maybe you didn't get my email ... i love it, so let me know when the next one is happening! i totally makes my day, both giving and recieving :-)

chanel said...

P.S. I love your legacy page ... its gorgeous! i will make sure i check your blog more regularly! we seem to have a bit in common! luv c

Felicia said...

You've got to keep moving towards that goal even if it seems you won't make your deadline! I've learned more about photography this year since I started my blog than I ever knew before. Of course, I still know next to nothing! LOL

dragonflydreamer said...

I admire your goal. I admire you not choosing the "easy" or "right" answer. Unitl recently I have spent my life in fear of anything that isn't right or wrong. Enjoy your journey and I will enjoy watching your skills and style develop the way you want them to as you take more and more photos.

Anonymous said...

How happy I am for you! Im sorry thought that your pregnancy has been rough. Im sorry I totally dropped off the fase of the earth. I had to, I mental thing. I hadnt checked my e-mail for months. I am feeling so much better now. Hope that you will too!! How far along are you? I love your Legacy LO. I cant wait to get caught up!!


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