Saturday, February 03, 2007

Musings


I've been thinking lately about the kind of home environment I want to create for my sweet little one. Sometimes, in the daily chaos of laundry, dishes, dirty diapers and meal times, it's easy for me to forget that she is growing up, little by little, every single day---she is already beginning to mock things that we say and I realize more and more how very aware and curious she is.
I had what I would call a very "normal" childhood---I had (and still have) 2 parents that loved me and would do anything for me. They were devoted and present and involved. I want that for my daughter, but as with evrey generation, I want so much more for her.
I want her to be surrounded with creativity and inspiration. I want her to love music and art and nature and dance and be filled with a sweet spirit. Even though it may sound corny or lofty, these are honestly the ideas that fill my mind. Sometimes I want to censor what I am really feeling. I want to pretend like I have it all together. I don't want my daughter to look back on my musings some day and realize that I was finding my way as we went along. Yet that is the real truth of it all. I don't have everything figured out. I am making up some things as we go along. But I am always doing the best I can and I am always making decisions with her best interest at heart.
So I will continue to remind myself that she is the most precious gift I have been given from Above and that while she is in my care, I will do everything in my power to create a life for her that is joyful and memorable and comfortable and honest and embracing.
I am reminded to take pleasure in the "little" things---to let her catch me enjoying doing the laundry, because I have taken the time to buy yummy smelling detergent and to put it in a lovely little bottle. To dance around the house with her on Saturday mornings. To take walks and simply enjoy the sunshine. To create scrapbooks for her that chronical her childhood. To prepare meals with patience and love and to use real napkins every now and then rather than our usual paper towels. Love is definitely in the details.......

2 comments:

Lindsey Loo said...

I can only imagine what a great momma you are!!

dragonflydreamer said...

You are very wise to be so young with a little girl. I am the mother of two grown sons, Beau will turn 22 next Saturday and Steve is 18. I regret that so many times I got caught up in the madness of life that I didn't cherish every second of their childhoods. I would give almost anything to go back and do it again knowing what I now know. I admire you for realizing not to let life get in the way of enjoying your beautiful little girl.

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