Wednesday, March 23, 2011

wordy wednesday (part 2)

It's been exactly one week since I had my little blog-meltdown, and seriously considered giving the whole thing up. One week to think about my priorities, and how I choose to spend my time. One week to read the comments left by sweet friends, and really consider their advice.

And today is a new day. I realized that I am not striving to be super-blogger, super-mommy, super-woman or super-anything. I am just a girl (er......woman) who is doing the best she can on any given day. Trying to create a life that is meaningful, memorable and God-centered.

I have thought a lot about what I want our life to look like. Some days I reach the mark, and other days not so much. But I keep going. I keep waking up, asking for guidance and strength, trying to be the best woman-wife-mother-daughter-friend that I can be. I keep making lists. I keep reading books. I keep dreaming dreams. I keep asking questions. I keep searching for inspiration. I keep writing. I keep making mistakes. I keep on keepin' on.......

I really like blogging. I know it's not for everyone. I know it can seem self-centered and self-important at times. But my goal has always been to bring light to the good stuff that happens every single day. I am still finding my voice, still finding my way on this journey, but I am grateful for every single word I have written here (and in my journals and scrapbooks and on pieces of scrap paper).

I've loved writing since I was a little girl. I've loved taking pictures for as long as I can remember. But somewhere along the way, I started listening to the voices that said writing was for "those other people", photography was too "mathematical," I am not an "artist" or one of those "creative types." But you know what......that's all just a bunch of hooey, and if I buy into those lies for one more minute, then I only have myself to blame. It takes courage sometimes to do the things that you love when those around you may not understand or approve. It takes courage to do the things that you love even when your inner voice tells you you aren't as talented as "X,Y, or Z" or "A, B, or C" for that matter. I want to be courageous. I want my daughter to be courageous. I want my son to be courageous. I want to teach them to follow their hearts and to spend their time doing the things that expand their JOY.

Blogging brings me joy when I allow myself to be authentic......when I write from the heart, share photos that make me smile, and refuse to focus on what someone else might think or how they might interpret something I have said. So that is my plan. To keep on keepin' on. To write when I feel like writing. To unplug when I feel like unplugging. To share what I feel comfortable sharing. To continue praying that this will be a space that not only feeds my own soul, but hopefully someone else's as well.


Susan Gussio said...

Hey Kristy! Just read your last few blog entries and PLEASE get rid of that negative self-talk! You are such an inspiration to so many people and not just me! You take wife-mother-sister-friend-career woman to new levels. Your entries are so thought provoking, encouraging, loving...I could go on but please know reading your blog (for me) sometimes gets me through a bad day - just watching the life you have made with the love of your life and those awesome, amazing kiddos. Keep on keeping on!! We do read and we do love!

Krysta said...

Perfect!!! I am so glad you came to that conclusion. You are awesome. :)

P.S. If you are looking for a new book you have to read this one. Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach. It's an easy a page a day and it gives you so much to think about. Not that you need anythign else to think about, but it has helped me sort through some things. :)


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